May 8 Wednesday Still cold and raining. He wants up early so we can get exercises done.I do the ROM before his BMP. The change makes it seem a little faster. Once he is up he gets on the computer, the in the stander. While he is back on the computer I clean up the rest of the stuff from traveling. I start to think about all the things I will need to start doing in the other rooms. Net able will be installed soon, I need to clear the wall space.
I get a confirmation regarding his urology appointment on the 9th, make sure I have the stones to show the doctor. By afternoon the sun is out enough to go outside and enjoy it. His friend comes by to hang out for the evening. It was a more productive day overall, though he still feels tired from the trip.
He is back in bed and ready to sleep by 10:30. Early day tomorrow.
May 9 Thursday I do a shortened ROM program, get him up, fed, washed and in the van by 9:45. His appointment is at 10:30. We get to the office, the only disabled parking spot is being crowded out by another van taking up 2 spots. I unload him, park the van.
We get inside the office, fill out a shitload of papers and wait. We are seeing a PA and there are about 4 people ahead of us. After about 20 minutes the receptionist calls me up.
“We don’t accept your secondary insurance. You cannot be seen today.”
“Secondary? What about primary?” I ask making sure I am hearing her correctly.
She tells me that since they won;t accept his secondary medical managed care insurance, he cannot be seen at all. I am wondering just how much the PA costs. She says if we change the medical (which we are, it takes 2 months) or pay cash, he can be seen. I begin to get pissed that we came all this way for nothing. I ask her if we have just wasted our entire morning.
She is apologetic but I don’t care. While Colin is trying to get us to leave, I am having a tantrum. I ask if they care he has already been to the ER or if they even understand SCI medicine. Then I remind myself, they don’t care. This place is more concerned about secondary insurance than treating a patient. Well fuck them. I leave still yelling profanities and swear we will never return.
We load up, I let his home care nurse know we are leaving town. She says she will be there around 3.
We get home, have some food, relax in the sun until it disappears again. The nurse arrives. She evaluates him and tells us she has spoken to the primary doctor’s office. She calls up the results of his CT scan, which shows stones in the kidneys on the 3rd of April. Maybe he passed them all by the time the ER doctor looked at his kidneys. There was still no pulmonary test results. She also said she was discharging him from home care. He would not be seeing her as a nurse anymore. We say our sad goodbyes when she leaves.
He is grumpy now, so we hang out. I try to get him to relax by dissing the medical care system. If you are in the hospital, things get done but take forever. Once you are discharged you are your own advocate, few will listen to you, contact information is secretive. The entire system is set up to be nothing but gaping holes designed for patients to get lost and fall through. My goal is to get him out of the system with minimal specialist support. But I need to maneuver through a few more areas before we can burn the bridges to pulmonary medicine, trauma, radiology and internal medicine. So much to do.
His friend comes by again, which cheers him up. His foot massager has arrived, which has heat and vibration modes. Just what his neurologist mentioned. We have a late dinner, the get him in bed around 10. We are all sleeping by 11.
May 10 Friday I let him sleep till 9, do his ROM before the BMP again. We take our time getting up. We have started working on the muscles under his arm. He is working on finding them, I zap them a bit to help him out.
By the time he is up it is getting warm outside. We go hang out in the shade then go inside and get him in the stander. He is up for an hour this time, then his feet are being vibrated again. His friend comes by for dinner. We have a good meal, they stream a movie, my husband and I relax.
His friend leaves by 10:30, we are all in bed by midnight.
May 11 Saturday After giving him his morning meds I let him sleep till 10. My husband has some workers coming to do the yard work and I try to update the blog. I am over a week behind, still. Mornings are when I try to get some time in, there just hasn’t been much. I manage to get to the 7th of May.
I get some laundry done, start organizing the storage bedroom so we can move stuff away from the wall. By the time I get Colin up, it is scorching outside. The house was closed at 7 so it is still cool inside. We do his hair, give him a quick bath. He is up by 11:30 with a shortened ROM after his friend calls and says let’s go have sushi. Just cannot pass that up.
I get a grocery list together, let my husband know we will also be getting Mother’s day gifts then we go to town. By the time we get back, the workers are gone, the yard is mowed, the trees are all trimmed and we have a massive pile of tree limbs that will need to be cut up for kindling. Work for another day. We still have nearly 2 full oak tree trunks to split and stack.
We have a late dinner of grilled pork chops. My husband and I have some wine, Colin and his friend are sampling different micro brews. His friend leaves about 10:30, Colin is in bed by 11, lights out by 11:30.
The evenings I still have a hard time thinking about my mom. My husband is always around to comfort me. Even though I feel weaker since her passing, he tells me this has made me stronger. I just wish I could feel that. Sure would help.
May 12 Mother’s Day I wake up grumpy. I let Colin sleep till 9 then we do his BMP. He is up by noon, has a quick lunch.
We are going to my in laws new home for a Mother’s Day BBQ. We have a nice bouquet and gift certificate for my mother in law, a plant for her mother in law. We get into the sizzling Fresno heat by 2.
Their house has stairs for the entrance so we hang out in the shade under the covered patio. I brought some wine, Colin is having a beer. I have a tearful conversation with my step dad. I miss my mom.
Colin has lots of water also, then a heavy BQ meal. By about 3:30 he is not feeling well. The heat is getting to him. We douse him with water and ice. We move to the front car port, they turn on the front sprinklers and the mist cools everyone off. It takes about 40 minutes for him to feel better. It is then I remember I forgot his meds. They are due at 5.
We hang out for a little longer then have to leave to get home by 7. Our nephew comes along to get some studying done. We drive home. I give Colin his meds 2 hours late. He does not feel good at all. I spoke briefly with his brother after Ian got off work. Colin is like a zombie, just wants to watch a movie and be on Facebook.
I pump him full of water, help him relax until he is ready for bed around 10:30. He gets his night meds a bit early at 11:15.
I finally get in bed around midnight still missing my mom, wishing Mother’s Day wasn’t so hard this year.